For as long as I can remember I always had to have certainty in life. I needed to know who, what, when, where, why, how. Over the years, I've learned to let that go, but those tendencies for certainty still creep up now and then. On my journey I've already faced a lot of uncertainty and the best thing you can do is just roll with it. Accept that you're never really in control and whatever will be will be. I've actually learned to look forward to those periods in life when things are uncertain. There is often an element of excitement, but those moments of uncertainty are also filled with elation, sadness, or despair. As much as we'd like to avoid those feelings, they help to ground us. They're necessary for our survival, for our growth. A dear friend Kristina sent me a quote yesterday that spoke about the times that feel the hardest are often the moments we experience the most change and growth. I fully believe that, I'm not sure what I expect to achieve at the end of this 90 day trip abroad, as the only intention I had for it was to let go of expectations, recharge my creativity, and just be in the present moment. Ask me again in one month and 22 days for my reflection on the trip.
I find the most uncertainty in my yoga practice and I LOVE that. It's the one element of my life that's fairly constant and allows me to work on myself again and again, never expecting the same outcome but often working on the same issues. I've been fortunate to find a great studio here in Manly, and these past few days I've been practicing like a crazy woman. I feel like a new person and also like an old woman - my body is sore! Anyways, that's all for today. Xx