“I once asked a bird, how is it that you fly in this gravity of darkness?". The bird responded, "Love lifts me.” - Hāfez
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Today has been emotional for me. It started first thing is morning with the rising of the sun. I woke for 6 am class and felt so awful, that I laid in bed instead. I went to the shala and was immediately confronted with negativity from another student. As resilient as I am, this negative force soaked into my body like water in sand. I struggled through my practice massage, feeling all sorts of overwhelming emotions. Somehow, I managed to endure 3 hours, then I proceeded to break for lunch. During lunch I cried - a lot. Being so far away and alone in that moment, I reached to those near and far. I am very grateful to have people in my life who can give me that lift when I'm feeling down. I took the hour to calm myself down and to breathe deeply. Back at the shala it was my turn to receive a Thai Massage. Here was this feeling again, although this time, it felt trapped within my body. I withheld the tears until after the session was over, and then like a dam bursting - cried all over again.
This got me thinking. Saturday is a Snow Moon, and it represents the opening of a new gateway and new energies for 2017. I can't help but feel a parallel. What are the odds I would go through such a transformation the past few weeks, learning the healing arts of Thai Massage, and conclude this journey on Friday, the eve of the Prenumbal Lunar Eclipse. Additionally, there is also a New Moon Solar Eclipse at the end of this month which marks the end of my journey abroad. A new spiritual doorway has opened and I suspect today is preparing me for it. At least, I'll go with that theory for now. Because if I've learned anything it's that things aren't coincidental. Shuba Ratri xx.